Friday, September 28, 2012

The post where I tell you we want another baby.

As I type this, I am in my PJs, curled up in the bed, propped into a semi-sitting position by pillows - lots & lots of pillows! I'm not feeling well tonight, although I don't really know what I could be coming down with. Probably just some sinus drainage or some other "maintenance" type unpleasantry. I don't guess I've ever thought of sinus drainage as a maintenance issue before, but that's another topic altogether.

Speaking of other topics altogether, I am really struggling emotionally with being content where God has me. Don't get me wrong, I am absolutely loving our new home, I couldn't be more thrilled that I am now home with the kids all day and that we are homeschooling our happy little hearts out, we have great neighbors, and my husband has been so supportive of our decision to reduce our income by half.

I'm just stuck on one thing.

I want to be pregnant again. I want another little one in the house. I want more noise, more sleepless nights, more memories, more responsibilities, more dirty laundry, more, more, more. Yes, I want all of that and all the other joys that come along with the role of mother-of-an-infant.

This is not a new feeling, see, David and I have been discussing having another child for several months now, but we both were realistic in our expectations when we presented it to our doctor. We both expected a "no, you cannot since you've had x, y & z done to your body. it would be physically impossible." And that is exactly what we were told when we met with the first doctor (not my doctor, but another one in the group.)

But I was not ready to give up the fight. There is a clinic about 12 hours away that specializes in tubal reversals and despite having x, y & z done to my body, Dr. M (one of the surgeons there) had advised me that just because I have had those proceedures does not alone indicate that I would not be a good candidate for a tubal reversal. He recommended we come down and have a hysteroscopy performed that would give a detailed image and report of what my uterine lining looks like now, 2 years post-ablation and 5 years post tubal ligation. After talking to Dr. M, I called and made another appointment with the same office I usually attend, only this one was with my physician.

On the day of my appointment, I fearfully met with Dr. C, the physician who performed my last c-section and ligation, and told her what my husband and I wanted to do. She was excited for us! She immediately scheduled a time for us to do the hysteroscopy which she would forward the results over to Dr. M and let him make the final decision, since that is his specialty.

On the day of the hysteroscopy, I was reminded that it was not likely to find the results I wanted to see because the uterine lining had been burned off just two years ago. I was ok with that. At least I would know that it was impossible to conceive rather than always wondering "what if".

Much to the surprise of everyone in the room, the doctor, the assistant, my husband, and myself, Dr. C announced that she saw healthy lining which was a very good indicator that I could in fact carry a term pregnancy but that she would leave the final "decision" to Dr. M.  I heard from Dr. M's staff the following day. They said that Dr. M was very pleased with what he saw and that I am clear to schedule the surgery for the reversal whenever I would like.

Unfortunately, money is a major factor here. It is not a proceedure covered by insurance and we would be paying for the travel and the surgery out of pocket. So here I wait. Trying to be patient with where God has me. Knowing that if we never even raise the money to have the proceedure done, He has already shown His glory in giving us something else to testify to of His goodness! Dr. C said she has never seen such a clear hysteroscopy report on a post-ablation patient and that based on the report, she would have to classify the ablation that she performed as a failure! Which is fabulous news to us and we are so honored that God would grant us that exciting testimony.

And then...just like the Israelites, I quickly forget how much God has blessed us anytime another hardship comes our way. So here I sit, curled up in the bed, feeling sick, and trying to be peaceful and content during this season of my life. Because after all, life as a child of the King's does have some pretty sweet perks blessings!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

GHS of 2011: Movin' On Up! (Part 1 of 4)

Most, if not all, of my 6 blog readers probably know the full story about the Great House Swap of 2011 (referred to as the GHS, from here on). But, if there is one thing I have learned about our God throughout the past several months, it's that His vision is clearer, broader, and more perfect in every way than ours is! So in the spirit of service - to Him, to you, to someone who may stumble upon my blog and find themselves in the shoes we were once in, and to myself in the form of a reminder of how faithful God is to provide perfectly for His children in their time of need - I will share, in it's entirety, the events that led up to the GHS of 2011. Oh, I am giddy just thinking about the story again. Fasten your seat belts, this is gonna be a bumpy ride! :)

In September of 2009, the housing market stunk. Not much has changed, but I digress. On a whim, my husband and I decided that if we could sell our house, maybe we could be one of those buyers who could get any house their hearts desired at a low ball offer. So with not much more reasoning than that, we called around and found an agent to put our house on the market, listed higher than others in the neighborhood with the line of thought that "if it doesn't sell, it's no biggie. We like the house, the neighborhood, the neighbors." There was really no reason to leave. I mean, sure, we were a family of 6 living in an 2200 sq. ft. house that could be a little cramped at times, but it was far from an impossible arrangement.

The house sold in 3 weeks.

The offer came in and they wanted us out in 30 days. We had no idea where we were going to move to. So the hunt was on. We looked at several houses and finally decided on this house, which was not covered in snow in August when we moved into it. (It just happens to be one of the only pics we have of the home.)


This house was listed at $339,900 when we originally looked at it and while I blatantly told the agent that we were not in a position to make an offer on a house with an asking price that high, he assured me that we could make "any offer". So we talked and we decided to make an offer of $265,900, knowing without a doubt that they would not take an offer  $74,000 lower than their asking price. 

They accepted. What?! That wasn't supposed to happen!

Within hours we heard back from our agent that our offer had been accepted, and I went into panic mode. We loved the home, it was everything and then more than what we were looking for but even at such a discounted contract price, it was more than we were hoping to spend. Way more. But we sat down and looked at a few numbers and decided everything was doable, so my fear gradually eased into excitement. We were about to become one of "those people" who get the house of their dreams on a low ball offer!! Little did we know what being "one of those people" truly meant.  We were soon to find out!  

...to be continued

Monday, September 24, 2012

If my blog were a book,


it would probably have a Table of Contents somewhere close to the beginning. Since February, when I wrote this post, I have really done some thinking and have realized that I have MUCH to blog about. Some things new, some things not so new. As I have pondered the many great things the LORD has done for us, I have often thought "That would make a great blog post". Many times these days, my husband will ask me "What are you thinking about?" to which my response is almost always "Oh, just thinking about blogging". Some of the things that have crossed my imaginary Table of Contents include:
  • The Great House Swap of 2011
  • Living the Simple Life
  • Dylan, Bryan, Lydia & Elysa-isms
  • God's Design for Marriage and our Response as His children
  • Debt, getting out of it, avoiding it, and encouraging others to do the same
  • Raising Arrows: Biblical Parenting
  • Scripture Memorization Techniques we use
  • Nightmares of Pool Ownership
  • Our Homeschool Days
  • Minor Home Improvements
  • Quitting Your Job
  • Raising a Large Family on a Small-Family Budget
  • My Life after Tubal Ligation
  • Radical Obedience
  • Life Lessons: Advice to Myself
  • Having JOY in your Christian Journey
  • Some of My Favorite Things
  • When Real Life Doesn't Make Sense on Paper
If my blog were a book, you could skim the table of contents and choose which chapter sounds appealing to read. But since it's not, you'll just have to check in to see when that chapter "shows up". On special days, you might stumble upon a "guest post" from one of my "Arrows". :) Thanks for dropping by! I look forward to hearing from you!

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

::insert massive tumbleweed blowing across the screen::

::looks around at abandoned, desolate, run-down blog::

::waves in to the construction crew::

Let the resuscitation begin!!